Whoop! Another depression post!

Words hurt. Just saying..

I'm mute now on MSP and stuff, yeah? Better to be mute than talk and let someone say something to you that hurts I guess.

Now, holy mother of satan, this looks incredibly fun! Might try it sometime.

Malise. 

For Kai~

I told Kai about the cherry blossom prince, named Kohei, so I found the pic. Here you go ~

Love you guys.
Mali-chan.

I'm ill x-x

This is the time of year (summer) when I get ill with massive colds. But in winter when everyone else is sniffling about their colds, I'm like "Huh? Am I the only one without a cold?"
Buuuuuuut, when I do get ill, which is often now because anorexic and that kind of rubbish, I get dangerously  depressed.
So I guess this blog post is to kind of let all my depression out or I'll do something stupid.

So let the depression Tumblr pictures begin.












Okay .-. I think I'm done now even though I could have posted about fifty more.

Blergh..
Love y- oh stuff it.
Mali-chan

Exposing Fakers.

Okay, me and Kai (Nick123123444) have been exposing fakers and things. Yeah, I know, sounds fun, right?

Well, on my "Emos" post I got a comment saying this girl was emo and she gave me her blog link. So I happily looked at it.. Until I found some pictures that she was claiming was her.

So I took pictures and stuff. Blergh, this so hard. x-x But Oh Well.
 Okay, so this was the first picture of "her" from her blog.
I can easily find this picture on Google because I've used her face quite a lot as characters in stories.

 This was the second picture of her posted on her blog. And as you can see, the piercings are totally different and the girls look nothing the same.

Smart little me zoomed in on the picture to find this. A "www" sign. Wow, messy work. And anyway the second picture looks totally photoshopped. x'D So yeah, you fail.

 

 And I also found "her cat", and even that looks fake. x'DD










 So, Kai posted stuff about Angela being fake, and I didn't realise before that she'd put up a picture of her "Brother".

This is what she put as the title to the picture.
And btw, Darling Joshua and Lauren broke up ages ago. Because Lauren likes breaking peoples hearts and telling her boyfriends that her friends snog her.









So clever little me typed in Alex Evans (He's an emo model and I use his face for lots of stories too. Plus, I'm a big fan. Some people say I'm the girl version of  him.)

Anyway, lookie what I found. I found the exact same picture under Alex Evans. xD
If you wanna say a hot emo boy is your brother Angela, at least pick somebody who isn't famous. Just a tip. x'D


Anyway, that's all. I love you guys.
Mali-chan~

Two updates! Since I didn't have time to do on on the 20th.. Oops!

Hey! Sorry for not posting on the 20th of June, I didn't have time. Too much homework x-x

Sooo... You'll be getting two updates in the same post.
Anywhore, let's begin.

Relationship status update.

Me and Kai's relationship. We've been together four weeks now. Our four week anniversary was on the 20/06/13 (Another reason why I didn't update)

Kai and Joe's relationship. Yes, Kai (my brother Kai) is gay and I think Joe's bi? I can't remember, well their two week anniversary was on the same day as my four week anniversary.

And Dom and Kohei's relationship. Yes, another gay couple. Don't hate. It is their two week anniversary today. :'D Happy anniversary guys (even though Frank Wolf ruined half of it.)

So yay! Happy couples. And damn, I'm cheery hyper again.

People?

I strongly suggest reporting this girl for her foul mouth ;'D

 Cringe time now.  Below.

 Why would I want to do date some random guy who I've never talked to before? Not adding the fact, I have Kai.

Why thank you. xD I am hot now. xD But naaah, I'm not.
And the fact that I'm kind of anti-social doesn't help me in this situation.







Anyway, thanks for reading this pretty pointless post. I love you guys.
Mali-chan~

Alternatives to self-harm

I am a self-harmer (I haven't cut since the 24th/05/2013. I'm proud of myself.) And I have lots of ways (some quirky) to help myself.

• Scribble on photos of people in magazines. It distracts you and makes the people ugly so you feel better about yourself. 
• Tear apart newspapers, photos or magazines. Ripping something up helps anger self-harming.
• Go to the gym, dance or just exercise. I don't know. It helps. 
• Splatter paint. Unless you're inside. I got wrong for doing that.
• Write down your feelings on paper then rip/burn it. I find this the most effective way. 
• Break sticks.
• Snap a rubber band or hair band against your wrist.
• Clap your hands until it stings.
• Splash your face with cold water.
• Take a hot/shower bath to calm yourself down.
• Write or paint on yourself.
• Take a bath with ice cubes (numbing sensation) 
• Bite into a hot pepper
• Play a musical instrument. I do. I play violin.
• Doodle on sheets of paper
• Write out lyrics to your favourite song.
• Memorize a poem with meaning.
• Learn to swear in another language.
• Go outside and try and guess what the clouds look like.
• Re-organize your room.
• Draw or paint your feelings
• Buy a cuddly toy. I have a few. o//o Shh.
• Wander aimlessly through a book store. Idk o-o"
• Watch a favourite TV show or movie.
• Eat something ridiculously sweet. 
• Think of a happy moment in your life and relive it in your head.
• Look at things that are special to you.
• YouTube funny videos work to cheer you up. x'3
• Let yourself cry.
• Go to a beach; write words in the sand and watch them wash away.
• Meditate/yoga.
• Hug a pillow or soft toy.
• Crunch ice.
• Light a candle and watch the flame.
• Remember that you don't have to hurt yourself just because you're thinking of self-harm.
• Make a notebook of song lyrics you can relate too.
• Repeat to yourself, "I don't deserve to be hurt" until you believe it.
• And check your pulse to prove you're alive.

Okay, I know, that's like so many but they all help me.

Mali-chan~

Haters

Hey guys since I don't have anything particularly exciting to blog about MovieStarPlanet, I will do a post about the very important subject of haters and bullying.

I know a lot of people who get  bullied, including myself. But I have a file of pictures about it. Inspirational ones. I'm going to show and share the best ones.

Yes, smile at them. Laugh at them. Stick your fingers up at them. Because they're not better than you. Nobody can be better than you. Than the person you are. They only think that. To boost their own self esteem and to bring yours down. 

I feel like a right hypocrite uploading this picture because I don't eat because of past bullies and uh, stuff. You'll know what I mean if you read about my life which is further down.

 But yeah, I'm all for the ignore part. :')

You may need to enlarge this pictures since I made them small. This should be your reaction to the haters. You shed one tear, show one ounce of pain or hurt, they've won. They got their satisfaction. THEY BROUGHT YOU DOWN.

And If this message hasn't sunk in then..

I'll pray for you.

Mali-chan~ 

Emos

Hey guys. Since I don't really have any MovieStarPlanet related things to post about and I'm in this competition with Kat to see who can post everyday and that rubbish, I will explain to you exactly what emos are since I am classed as one.

The term emo is short for "emotionally unstable". Which I will agree to being. The main fact is I get depressed at the awkwardest times, and can be happy the next minute. And then break down in tears again.

But some people think all emos are the same. Well they are not. If you look over at the picture it explains a lot.
I'll also tell you what I do out of those things.
I don't always wear black, but usually do. I am a Satanist for certain reasons. I am not evil. I just do not take kindly to idiots. I do not want to kill people unless they hurt my family badly, I usually want to kill myself. I do not hate everybody, because I love Kat and Kai. I can be happy. Don't believe me? Ask Kai. Again, I can be happy. And yes, I can be nice. And well, I ain't normal. Not going to even say I am. We ALL know I'm not. I mean, for Satan's sake, I went to asylum for two months.

So yes, we are all familiar with the term "emo" now and fully understand it. I hope.
So, yeah, bye. I love you guys.

Mali-chan~

The Truth, About Malise140.

I want you tell you about my life. So I will. You need to understand me to like me, be friends with me, or for me to even be social towards you.

So, the world got terrible on the 4th of September, 1998. I am fourteen years old now and that "thing" over there is me. Not the prettiest looking girl around, I know. Anyway, before I go into an insulting rampage about myself, I'll start from when my problems started.

I was twelve. Happy. Care-free and ginger. Yes, I was a ginger kid. Just leaving primary school. Got high levels in my SAT's. Did level six SAT's because the headteacher thought I was capable of it, and I was.
Our first day at secondary school.. was on my birthday. Yeah, I was excited. Scared? Heck yeah. Shy? I'm not me without shyness.

Well, anyway, a couple of months later I was bullied for my hair colour, my fatness and apparently I was an "unsociable cunt". This went on and on. I didn't tell anyone. Not even my twin or older brother who I am the closest too.
 (The one on the top with the glasses is my twin Dom. I am as blind as him. I use contacts though. And the one on the bottom is my older brother Kai.) The fat jokes got worse, and as they did, I stopped eating altogether. I am now anorexic. And so is Dom. Because when I stopped eating, so did he. He said, "Malise, you have to eat. If you don't eat, I won't." and that's exactly what happened. I made him anorexic. Because of me.

When I become anorexic, they couldn't bully me for being fat. So they moved onto my hair colour. Apparently ginger's are the devils children because of their fiery hair. That is a load of rubbish. We're normal kids which a brighter hair colour than you. So, when I was thirteen, on the 19th of April, I dyed my hair black. Without anyone's permission because I know they would say no. I went ahead and did it.
They stopped bullying me about that.
Then Ryan committed suicide. My oldest brother. He got bullied for

being gay. He wanted to kill himself so bad, and he did. In the dead of  night so no one could stop him. I don't even want to go into the detail of his death because it's so horrid. But I'll give you a hint. Train tracks. I was thirteen when I got my first tattoo. And it was for Ryan.

That is the tattoo. 'R' for Ryan with a heart because I love him, and three stars. One for each of his boyfriends that didn't abuse him. So that's what my tattoo means. And it's important to me.
Now, your probably's wondering when asylum and cutting comes in since I'm almost up to age fourteen. Well, I was thirteen when I went insane. Went to asylum.
It was when Dom started getting beat up at school. I was made to watch. Couldn't do anything about it though. I had to watch my own twin bleed on the ground, in pain. This went on for weeks until I snapped. I lost it. I had a mental breakdown. A bad one. The guy who held me in place to make me watch my brothers pain, got his "downstairs" parts damaged. If I would  have had a hammer, that boy would no longer be alive. I would have smashed his skull in.
The breakdowns became more frequent, and those idiots of parents sent me asylum (if you don't know what that is, it's sort of like a mental institute for insane people). I don't even want to go into detail into that horrible place. So many restraints... Well I spent two months in there until they finally thought I was fit enough to be a civilized human again, and was allowed home. That was why I was off MovieStarPlanet for so long. Sorry about that. And now we come to the age of fourteen. The cutting stage. Well, I got depressed when my Mum became an alcoholic (I don't know her reasons) and started picking on me and Kai. Apparently, my birth was a mistake. It's her fault for getting lucky with Dad -.- Anyway, I went out and got my snakebites to take my mind off things, and I'm not classed as the "emo" girl. Thanks for that guys (Note the sarcasm) and I started cutting. I'm not going to show you any cuts, because I know Kai (not my brother) will be reading and I know for a fact, he doesn't want to see. I did some pretty bad cuts, carved things into my arms. That kind of thing. And now I have therapy (not including non-brother Kai).
So please, if you've read all this, think before you say stuff, because the person you call fat, might go anorexic and starve themselves. And so on. Just think. It's not hard. Unless your a soulless person who wants to ruin someones life.

But on a happier note, I stopped cutting for Kai (not my brother) a while ago. I've been eating more, and Kai (not my brother) has kept me happy. So, now I'd like to thank some people for what they've for me.

Kai (not my brother, my boyfriend) for always being there for me. Always willing to give a cuddle when I need it.
Kat, for being my best friend through thick and thin. :')
And Molly, for also being a best friend who is willing to let me share my problems and comfort me. You can tell me anything now Molly. You're like a sister to me. So is Kat.

So yeah, thanks for reading about my life. I love you guys to pieces.

Mali-chan~

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Hiya Guys. This is my 2nd MovieStarPlanet blog. I kind of stopped posting on my old one at April Fools Day.  Since it was on my old email. And I use this one more now, okay, I use it all the time, I thought I'd make a MovieStarPlanet blog on this email. So yep, enjoy! ^.^
And if you haven't already figured out who I am, here;

This is my avatar. I hope you can see my username at the bottom, if you can't click the picture to enlarge. :') And I'm sorry, I can't add any more friends. I recently added the last person I could. I have exactly 240 friends which is all I'm allowed since I'm only level 12 D:.
But hey, if you want to be added that bad, help me level up. I'm only like, 117.000 fame away from level thirteen. xD It's going to take forever.
But oh well. I love you guys. I'll try and post a lot with sneak peeks at things like a look I want to buy (PLEASE DO NOT BUY) Or looks I've created and haven't bought. For you guys to buy. And if I do decide to buy, it will not count as copying.
And for looks that I won't be buying, I will show you what colours I use in them since I love using bright-ish colours in my looks (I know that one isn't.)

Mali-chan~